LoverBoy Trilogy - Part1

[4SandD]

come on bro. bring us the other 2 parts. its kind of like a tv drama, wanna know what happens to the girl in the end.

[AustinPowers]

Quite realistic.

But don't make her into a WL. That would be too far fetched.
More likely that she will become a sexually liberated woman.

Originally Posted by infinitiumus

I felt ashamed. But I never regretted making love, I only regretted making love to that bastard. It was all gone. Next year I have to go through the same whole cycle again. ..... The story is more about the struggle of a NUS undergrad. It is not really a story but an account of a girl I knew in the NUS and I wrote it many years ago. So Part 1 ended. There is also Part 2 & Part 3 till finally the girl graduated from NUS. Not too sure if brothers here interested as this thread is not very well-received.. ha ha probably not enough sex!

If there are enough interest, I would continue. Else I would leave brothers here with the memory of Su Yin. If we could advance the clock 20 over years to now, she could be a FL for all we know.[/I]

[templton]

thanks bro for this write up...
something away from the little brother and to real emotion life...

sometimes it's really hurting to see the girl frens ruin their life away when their bf dump them. not knowing how to help them or console them.... sigh~~~~~~

[infinitiumus]

I have decided to continue the story even if it is not really popular

I was in second year again. It was so strange. I thought I would be an outcast among my classmates. But during the very first lecture I saw so many familiar faces. I never knew so many were repeating. Aha, after all I was not alone. Naturally we clinged together - all the repeat students. There was a sense of camaraderie among us. My fear of isolation was unfounded. Repeating wasn't such a frightful experience after all.

I worked harder than ever in my life. I tried to do all my tutorials. I even tried to outpace the lectures. I had to do it; I needed not just a pass but good grades to satisfy myself. But I didnt just work, I played too. I went back to my beloved computer. It was such a joy again to see flashing messages. There were more restrictions on the use of computer but still it was better than none. I talked to lots of people and made many friends. But now I was careful not to let my fantasy run wild. I became more realistic and perhaps a bit cynical. Dan was my only love and he failed me so badly. I dared not try again. Really, it was too heart-wrenching to go throw all again.

I was in the chat room again, indulging in yet all the nonsense. There were some idiots around, they kept teasing the girls. But it was all for fun, I didnt really take it seriously. There was this guy by the nickname of AL. He kept disturbing me the whole evening in the chat room. But too bad, I had to give tuition.

I always reached the campus very early in the morning. That was one of my good habits. I hate the morning rush. Among the crowds strange people sometimes could get too close to you. As usual, after my cup of morning tea I logon, at the Cenlib. It was still very early and no one was around. There were few users on and I was contented to read whatever poetry that was to read. Nothing much to read so I went to the chat room. No one was around. Just as I was about to quit the screen quivered a trifle:

<**AL** > Hello baby!!
<Yin > Dont' call me tht. I am not ur baby!
<**AL** > Then hello sweet honey
<Yin > I am not tht either
<**AL** > Then who are you? Cutie pie?
<Yin > No lah, no more teasing me can or not?
<**AL** > Ok Ok, hello Yin!!
<Yin > Hi AL, why are u so early?
<**AL** > Yeap, I am early. Must do my project
<Yin > I c. Wht project are u doing?
<**AL** > How to explain to you?
<Yin > Nevermind
<**AL** > So few people, let me do a QNPP. See who else on -
<Yin > So early, of course few pple.
<**AL** > Oh NO!! So you are Yin!! Wah, look so pretty
<Yin > Wht?? U saw me?
<**AL** > Hee hee, just turn to your right baby. I am in central library
<Yin > Oh NO!!!!!!! U ambush me!
<**AL** > By accident! Never know you would be here.

.. to be continued..

[blackwhack]

keep the story going bro! i'm hooked

[infinitiumus]

I stayed on in the chat room. I forgot about my tutorials and the essay I supposed to do. How stupid of me! I missed my lunch too. It was 1pm already!!

I quickly made my exit. As I switched off the terminal, I turned to say bye to AL. He turned and smiled at me. I smiled too. And somehow my heart smiled too.

It was a long day. At long last my essay was completed. I heaved a sigh of relief. I moved to the terminal area. Oh lucky, there was an empty terminal. And gosh, he was still there at that corner.


<**AL** > Hungry now!! Think I better go off
<Yin > hi all!!
<**AL** > Hello baby Yin
<.Doggy. > Hello Yin Yin
<<MACHO> > HELLO YIN!!
<Yin > Wht abt hungry? Me too is hungry
.Doggy. > Aiya, AL said he hungry want to go makan
<<MACHO> > But none of us interested leh
<**AL** > Yin, you havent taken dinner?
<Yin > AL: No money to eat.
<.Doggy. > Yin: Aiya ask AL to spend you lor
<**AL** > Yin: Me also very hungry. Join me for dinner?
<Yin > AL: So pai say.
<.Doggy. > Yin: Where got such thing as pai say. Go lah..
<**AL** > Yin: Come on leh...
<Yin > AL: Now?
<**AL** > Yin: Yeap now
<Yin > AL: OK lor...
<.Doggy. > Bye bye you two! Have a nice romantic dinner!
<**AL** > Bye you dirty doggy
<Yin > Bye all.. *smooch*

So, off we went. I just followed him.

[mayoni]

a very unique thread,
please dont stop...

feel sad for her yr 1

[infinitiumus]

He was driving a MAZDA 1.5 GT. I sat beside him in the front. The whole car was in a mess. But to me it was heaven. I could not remember the last time I sat in a car. And now in front! Moreover, there was this suave guy bringing me to dinner. I almost slapped myself for being so dreamy again. Perhaps I was too poor for too long, the materialistic character in me started to surface.

"Hmmm... what do you fancy for dinner?"
"Oh, anything will do"
"Comeon, don't tell me that. Every girl I bring to dinner tells me
that and each time after the dinner they would complain!"
"Really, I take anything"
"Hmm.. let me think.. Shall we go to Denny's"
"Yes, it is OK with me"
"Then good. Where are you staying?"
"Lengkok Bahru"
"Hmm isnt it near Bukit Merah?"
"Ya, that's right"
"How about you?"
"I?? I stay in Serangoon"

We talked the normal things that acquaintances talked. He was driving fast, changing lanes as he pleased, as if he owned the road. But he was a skillful driver. I felt safe in his hands.

We were in Denny's. It was around 8pm and not too many people were around. The atmosphere was alright. We had a hearty meal and we talked a lot. I was so surprised that I could talk so much to a stranger. But he was no stranger. He made me feel at ease. He made me laugh. I did not know if I was too sensitive but I noticed that he was staring at me in the eyes most of the times. When I looked back he would smile and turn his face slightly. I never felt so happy for a long time. The feeling was not very intense, but it was happiness no doubt. And there was a ticklish sensation tucking at my heart.

He sent me home. I was so happy. But I was realistic and not imagining things. I was contented to have such a nice companion, I was not asking for more. My experience with Dan told me to be careful. I told myself I would not allow myself to fall so easily again.

[Harrier24B]

Mazda 1.5GT?? Denny's? That's my era ......should have gone to the bar upstairs....hang on.....ok, it's called THE AMERICAN CORNER......damn nice place to have drinks and chill.......

Anyway, keep the story going.....it's a very good read.........

[cpcheongster]

keep it going

[infinitiumus]

Days moved on. I talked to him often on the computer. And I saw him often too, sometimes for breakfast, sometimes for lunch or in certain instances, for dinner. We went shopping together, we went swimming, we went bowling and we went roaming the streets. But there was nothing between us.

I was in cenlib. I was inside the chat-room again. AL wasnt around, so I was contented to just while away the hours. As usual there were stray messages coming in. And as usual I ignored them if I did not know the sender. But this one was different

"Hello YIN!!"
"Yes, who is tht?"
"You donno me but I know you!"
"How so unfair! Tell me who u are"
"Wow, today in mini-skirt? And a red blouse?"
"Hey, who are u? U saw me?"
"Don't tell you first"
"U are so unfair. Tell me or I will simply ignore u"
"OK lor, just turn around. Be quick I am going off already"

Slowly I turned my head. I saw him switching off the terminal. He stood up and smiled at me. My heart gave a leapt. I did not know the reason, there was something in him that was so terrifying. I did not know how to describe. He was very handsome and yet I found it so terrifying to look at him. My thoughts were broken. He waved and moved away like a bullet. I regained my composure and smiled at my too imaginative mind.

[infinitiumus]

My work had improved. I was confident that I would pass the examination which was around the corner again. Financially I was OK too for most of the time I had free meals from AL. Sometimes I felt quite bad. I tried paying him a couple of times, but he always smiled and brushed it aside. There was nothing I could do but to make sure that we would not go to too expensive place to eat.

I still could not forget about that guy who was behind me that morning. I had a feeling that something bad was going to befall on me. I was terrified. My fears were not unfounded. I received his first mail!


Dearest Yin,

Sorry for being too .. hmmm... what shall I say? Well to say it simply. I have been noticing you for a couple of weeks. Everytime you logon in central library, I would choose the colour terminal so that I can look at you. It was so funny but I found that I enjoyed watching you at the terminal. You are so cute and pretty! I really mean it.

I know I am a bit crazy but I just want you to know I enjoy your presence. Well, I hope you don't mind. Will write to you again

yours
max


There was a funny feeling swelling up in me. I felt a bit high and decided to reply


Dear max,

I donno who u are but I am sort of flattered by wht u said. Really, I don't mind u sitting behind me as long as I have no idea abt it. Now tht u told me u were watching me, I protest! Plse don't do it again.

just me
yin



The days dragged on and I was dragged too. The road in front of me was no longer clear. I did not know what to do. Max was getting serious. His mails got bolder all the time, saying how he missed me and all. He said I was attractive and such a fine sight to see. Oh God! I was growing mad. Every time I read his letters my heart would grow fonder. I found it ridiculous. I didnt really see him properly. We never talked face to face.

All this while AL had been so nice to me. Maybe because I was seeing AL so often that I began to take him for granted. He was always around whenever I needed him to, to talk to me, to take dinner with me and to send me home. The whole day had passed and AL was no where to be seen. He didnt even leave a mail telling me where he went to. The whole afternoon I felt sick. I realised then I missed AL! I started my crazy moods in the chat room, asking people if they had seen AL. But no, none had seen him around.

The hours passed so slowly. I missed my dinner. The sky grew dark. I never felt so lonely for such a long time. I went offline and made my way to the bus-stop. But I didnt walk far. AL was there, rushing up the stairs. I almost cried. He tucked at my arm lightly and led me down the stairs. I told him I had a headache. He sent me home.

I could not sleep. I tossed hither and thither. My head felt like bursting. Images of AL and MAX came bombarding my brain. Someone help me please. AL was the perfect boyfriend - suave, humourous, rich, smart, mature and everything. MAX was the mystery - handsome, romantic, cheeky and ... I did not really know much about him. It was an obvious choice for me, AL was the man for me. He was so kind-hearted, his sweet words were so sincere. He would be the last man on earth to hurt me. MAX was an unknown. There were too many questions unanswered about him. He was just a fantasy. But I did not know why I could not bring myself to give in to AL. MAX always gave me a sort of funny indescribable feeling that was missing in AL. Now when I recalled how MAX looked like I began to shiver. I knew the answer. MAX's eyes was so similar to Dan's. Even the words he used, I recalled, seemed to have come from Dan. OH!! That bastard still had such a hold on me. All this while Dan was always on my mind, only left in a corner to be left
uncovered. And now he appeared in the form of max! I was powerless. Someone please help me.

The strength I thought I had abandoned me. I seemed so helpless. I knew then I was doomed. I could feel that something terrible was going to happen.

Next morning AL picked me up and dropped me at science while he drove to engine to do his project. I seemded to be disinterested in the lectures. I tried to read my ECONS but nothing went in. It was already 11am and I havent gone online. At last I could take it no more. I went online.

[infinitiumus]

AL was on too. I beeped him.

--> "**smooch**"
AL: "hi yin, smooch * 100000 back"
--> "i am so sian!!"

There was a long pause before the reply camed

AL: "Why sian? I cheer you up baby?"
--> "donno, just feel sian"

Again, there was a long pause

AL: "Sorry yin, I have to run my programs, talk to you later, OK?"
--> "Ok lor .."

So, I was left alone again. But not for long.

MAX: "Yin Yin baby! I miss you!"
--> "HI max"
MAX: "**smoooch** **smooch**"
-->: "smooch back!"
MAX: "Why are you in sclib? why no come to cenlib?"
--> "I got lecture in SCE wht"
MAX: "Ah see... I miss you a lot you know?"
--> "Is it? I donno"
MAX: "Wah, yin you so heartless..... *sob* *sob* "
--> "No crying little boy, I give u a sweet"
MAX: "I no want sweet, I want you!!"
--> "U wnt me come and get lor... hee hee"
MAX: "OK I come now... no run OK?"
--> "Ha ha, by the time u reach here I wld be gone"
MAX: "You so bad! Be careful, next time I see you I will strangle you
--> "Good lor, I waiting for tht day"
AL: "HI yin I am back"
MAX: "Tell me yin, when is your birthday?"
--> "No tell u"
AL: "Yin!! oi oi, this is AL"
--> "Ya AL, I am here "
MAX: "Tell leh, I give you a big present"
--> "No need lah, save ur money"
MAX: "You really don't want? No regrets?"
--> "Sure lah, u tink i so greedy for presents?"
MAX: "Not lah. But won't it be nice to receive presents?"
--> "It depends lah. If Boy friend give then happy else not very"
MAX: "Aiya, I'm your boy friend what! Isnt it yin yin baby?"
--> "NO!! U are not. I no have boy friend"

....
I did not know how long I flirted with Max. It must have been an hour or so. I had forgotten about AL. I thought he went to do his project again. Max was gone at last. I felt somewhat disappointed. I did a scan and AL was still on.

--> "Hello ...."
AL: "Yes?"
--> "Wht are u doing? ur project?"
AL: "Finish long time ago"
--> "Then why u no msg me?"
AL: "Don't want to disturb you. You are busy talking"
--> "AL! are you alright?"
AL: "I am alright. Just stared at an empty screen for an hour"
--> "Why????"
AL: "You never reply to me for an hour"
--> "I replied. But ur msgs were too infrequent. I tot u were
doing ur project so no disturb u"
AL: "Is it? You not talking with other guys?"
--> "I was talking with this strange guy for a while"
AL: "An hour is a while?"
--> "No lah, whr got an hour. Just a few minutes"
AL: "Then what you doing?"
--> "Nothing much lah, just talk lor.. doggy, macho they all was on"

...

We did not talk much. He came to send me home. I dared not look at him. His eyes were so still and face black. I felt so bad about bluffing him but I had no choice. It was so stupid of me to have talk so much nonsense with max. I really felt so bad. AL was such a nice guy. How could I do such a thing to him? I almost wanted to slap myself. All the while in the car he didn't talk. At the door of my house, he just forced a 'bye' out of his mouth. I knew I was stupid to bluff him. He was so smart, surely he knew that I was bluffing him. I knew I hurt him and yet I could not bring myself to tell him that I was 'flirting' with max! How could I? I like AL a lot, I did not want to
lose him yet, even as a friend. How about max? I really did not know what to do.

I called AL and told him not to fetch me the next day. I told him I needed to rest. He just answered reluctantly and hung up the phone as soon as I said bye. I cried. I did not know what I was doing. And I did not know what I should do.

I worked up very early. I told myself I have to go campus and settle with AL. I just couldnt let him be so angry with me. I reached campus very early and decided to write him a mail.

[genius]

You are an excellent writer... Definitely deserved a book prize... clap clap...

[infinitiumus]

Dearest AL,

I am so sorry about everything. I know I let you down. Please forgive
me. If there is anything I can do to make you smile again, I will do
it. Take care of yourself. Your health is the most important. Please
do not be angry. I am sorry.

luv,
.. yin

After I had sent the mail to him I just stared at the screen. I did not
know how many minutes had passed.

AL: "Hi yin..."
--> "AL.. HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SMOOCH***********"
AL: "How are you?"
--> "I am fine! *smooch*.. u are smiling again"
AL: "Yeap... I am like that... won't be angry for long.. hee"
--> "Good..."
AL: "You know one thing?"
--> "Wht?"
AL: "That why I was so angry last night?"
--> "I know.. it was all my fault"
AL: "No.. you don't know.. it is because .."
--> "Wht? Don't keep me in suspense"
AL: "Because I like you a lot"
--> "m...... AL... I like you too, you know?"
AL: "I know!!"
--> "But ..."
AL: "But what?? Isnt this great? Wow, the world is so beautiful"
--> "Al, I am scared. Give me sometime OK?"
AL: "Why scared?"
--> "I am really scared about falling in love again ..."
AL: "You had a bad experience?"
--> "Yeap, give me time OK?"
AL: "OK..no problem.. I'll wait for you.. hee hee"
--> "Thnks... you are so good to me..."
AL: "You come again ...."

........
My day somewhat brightened. It was as if a rock had been lifted from my heart. At long last I told him I liked him. The world seemed clear now. That wasnt any choice for me now. But I was still terrified. I did not have the courage to fall into love just like that. I need space and time to breathe and think about my relationship with AL. I wanted to be sure that I really love him. Maybe I was still thinking of max? I must be crazy. Max was just a passing fad. I shouldnt not think about him. But I could not! Images of him kept flooding in. There was no escape. I was trapped.

It was a friday. AL was away the whole day. He said he had a friend coming from Australia. I had a long day in front of me. I had just finished another essay. After submitting I went to co-op to look around. There was nothing interesting. I went online.

I had not been to cenlib for a while but it was still the same. Luck was with me, I only sat at the sofa for 5 minutes before a terminal became available. So, I was lost again in the world of the chat-room. I did not know how quickly time passed. I was too engrossed. But it was not to be a peaceful day. There was a tap on the shoulder. I turned around. Max was behind me, smiling.

"Hi yin, so free today?"
"Ya, quite free. Just finish essay"

He was quite close to me and I could see him clearly now. He was more handsome than what I perceived him to be. His curly hair was cute.

"Yin, care to join me for lunch?"

I looked at my watch. It was already 2pm! I was hungry.

"Sure, why not. Where?"
"Let's go to arts?"
"OK"

We had a quiet lunch. He was much more quiet in real person than on the computer. Minutes dragged on. The afternoon wind was strong. I gazed out and I could see the sea. I gave a sigh.

"Yin, you like the sea"

I just nodded my head.

"Then why are we here? Let's go"
"Where are you ..."

He did not give me to finish my sentence. He pulled me up. I have to follow in double quick steps behind him.

He had a bike! (Oh no same as Dan). I was on the road again on the bike. I did not know I felt. It was such a long time that I had been on a bike. I missed the cutting wind! He was going fast. I had to hug him. I could feel his body. Oh NO!! I would not allow history to repeat itself.

The same old place! Fate must had been too cruel to me. Images of Dan came floating back. I remembered how on our first date he kissed me. And I remembered the last time I saw him, when he told me he was going with another girl. I was speechless.

"Oi, what happen to you? Dumbfounded by the beauty?"

I just shook my head and gazed out to the sea. I felt so painful. My heart was wrenching. I swallowed my tears, refused to let it flow. And max brought me back to life.

"Oi oi", he shook my shoulder
"Oh, wht?"
"What are you thinking?"
"Nothing"

I looked at max again. I really wanted to cry and tell him all about my past. His eyes were so similar to Dan's, so beautiful. I looked at him again. His imploring eyes as if telling me to reveal my secrets. I just couldnt control myself anymore. I rushed into him and cried on his shoulder. He held me lightly and let me cry.

I stopped and looked up at him. He cleaned my face and held up my chin. I thought I was dreaming, I thought I saw Dan in front of me. I was shook alive by his wet lips. They were on mine. I tried to push him away but my resistance was weak. I knew it was very wrong to let him kiss me and yet I wanted him to kiss me. I was confused. He kissed me till I was nearly breathless and at last I found the strength to push him away. He let go of his arms and I caught my breath.

I walked away from him towards the bench. I sat on it. He came too to sit beside me. I started to mumble, I started to recount my past with Dan. He sat there quietly, listening intently. Slowly, he had his arms round me. I felt safe. I felt as if his strong arms were my protector. I had forgotten all about AL. What was on my mind was Dan and this max was his replacement. It was all too crazy. I was in a trance. I did not know how long he held me like that but at long last I seemed to be sober again.

I was sitting and lying against him and his right arm was around me and his left hand was caressing my chin and face - ever so lightly. I felt safe in his arms. Then he kissed me again. This time round I did not resist. I was powerless as I submitted myself to him. He was a very good kisser - like max and we kissed for very long periods - at times he would lift his lips from mine and then nibble my lips and then we would kiss again. And I could feel his left hand moving along my body - but I didn't care. I could feel him fondling my breasts through the clothes. I didn't care. And he got bolder and slipped his hand under the blouse to feel for my breasts. My nipples hardened to his touch and I woke up. I pushed his hands away:

"People can see", I exclaimed.
"Let's go somewhere else", he said.
"No. I don't think we should do this", I remarked
"Come on Yin, what is the problem.. You don't like me?"
"No. I can't do this.."
"Ok Ok.. Then let's go and watch a movie ok.."
"Ok.. let get out of here"

So I jumped on his bike and we rode away. Away from my misery which after a year seemed to have a hold on me.