The Departure of my ex...

[Rangers]

Part:6
On the way back to the hospital.. i received a phone call from my collague..

Me: Hello
Shirleen: R u busy?... just called to inform u... 2mr u have to have come back for meeting
Me: i know... though i have a gd mind nt to go back..
Shirleen: Nope... u have to come back.. they r marking u already..
Me: let them mark if they want... when i was making money for the company..
they treat u like kings... now i dun care already... nothing matters more to me than her..
Shirleen: U r really committed to her...
Me: cant tok now... reaching hospital soon...

I managed to buy her favourite roses b4 i visit.. At times.. i really run out of ideas of what flowers to buy for her... My ex love roses and tulips alot... Buying these would cheer her up alot...

She was still sleeping when i reached there.. Her parents is by her side..
Aunite: u r back..
Me: have to collect some stuff... Aunite.. 2mr i have to rush back to office.. but after the meeting.. i will rush back here... 2nite.. i will stay and accompany her..
Aunite: me dunno what to say.. Thank you so much for yr time in taking care of her...
Me: Pls dun say that...

All these while... i am struggling with myself and mentally prepared for the worst... I put my heart and soul in taking care of her... Her parents left for dinner when i am here...

Aunite: Need us to tapo anything for u?..
Me: it is k... thanks cos i am nt hungry..
Aunite: u have to eat something even though u r nt hungry... if nt u would nt have enough strength to take care of her...
Me: k then.. just some sandwiches will do and a cup of coffee please...

I then sat beside her... she has been sleeping soundly ever since under the influence of morphine...

She: Dear...
Me: do u like the roses..
She: Yup... I only want u by my side tonite..
Me: k... i will... knowing that this may be the last nite i can have her by my side and so we really cherish each other...

To be continued...

[Sensory Sniper]

Conversational stories,

Me: *******
Her: ******
Uncle: *******
Me: *******, etc

Usually bores and irritates the hell out of me. Mainly becos for all I know, they're but just a story and very difficult to read. Yours, my bro. It seems like you're really unfolding chapters of your life... glued by it.... but again, I do hope its nothing but a story, something frictional and you're a master story teller.

This thread - it touches my heart.

[arinaz]

one of the nest thread. I feel for you bro Ranger.

[Rangers]

Part 7:

That nite itself is cold and i was alone with her... as she told her parents that she just want to be alone with me.. Time to us is very precious... every mintue and second counts... How i wish that time would be frozen at that point of time.... That Heaven can give us more than 48 hours... more 48 hours to come in the days to come... but i know it is impossible...

She: did u still have our wedding bands with u...
Me: of course... it is always with me...
She: can u put the wedding ring on me...
Me: I choke... Sure... gently i put the rings on her fingers... With that i will never leave u....
She: let me put on the rings for u...

I have mixed feelings at that moment... this moment of life is what i have been waiting for years... and now it is here... it is abit 2 late... that she is leaving me so soon... But at least.. this dream of mine can be fullfilled...
She lean aganist me and i hug her gently... as both of us are tearing in the arms of each other... She soon fall asleep again and as usual i keep myself awake...

To be continued...

[natsuki]

Well, many human beings tend to regret losing someone that cared and loved them, only after realizing the one who's always there, are those that they never treasured.... Dun know whether u understand wad i mean.. but den... Be strong! Treasure wad u have today cuz u might never know, wad will happen in the future...

Loving someone who's already change heart is very painful... It's even more painful to see that person suffering from sickness but their love ones hack care abt them... However bro, U are a nice and sweet ex bf of hers... All the best in ur future relationship/s... Take care....

[ryaw]

Wah,utmost respect for u bro....yr story is really like in the movies wan.I think if u can do this kind of thing for yr ex,u can do anything in the future.Whoever marries u next time is her fortune.Anyway i hope yr story can be broadcast to all the knnb ccb fucking idiot sg gers who only like to be play by playboys and then come back crying to the ex type.So tat they will learn from this.There r alot of good sg guys ard.

[Rangers]

Once again a Great Thank you to all the bros for their encouragment and listening ears... i really appreciate that... Men always tend to bottle up their feelings inside their heart.. Luckily still have this forum which allow me to let go of my pain through writing...

[Rangers]

Part 8:

Soon it was time to go for the meeting... me really cant bear to leave her at any moment... Kissing her gently on her forehead and covering her well with a blanket... i headed off quickily to the office.. Before i left.. i told her mum to keep me updated with any latest developments.. My mobile will be on at all times( Usually i off my mobile when i am having meetings).

After receiving the bad news... i was in the taxi.. trembling...rushing off to the hospital... pls hang on... i told myself.... Finally after what seem to be a long journey... i finally reached the hospital again... Running at top speed.. i reached the ward... her loved ones are by the bedside.... she is still barely awake...

Me: Dear i am here..
She: Remember what u promised me...
Me: i will nt break my promise...
Very weakly she closed her eyes...

The end is coming... i can c the light slowing fading away from her eyes.... and with a smile on her face... she left us.... I tried my best to hold back my tears and breaking down but i cant seem to bear it any longer.... kneeling down at her bedside... i cried and hold her hands... the doc came and certified her death.... Though i must say that i am mentally prepared for the outcome.. but i am really overwhelmed with sadness when it happened...

I have to be strong.. i told myself... cos i need to accompany during the wake.... and so i applied for 4 days of unpaid leave though my boss sounded really unhappy... Just 4 more days and i will resume my work.. i told him and hung up the phone... Her parents dressed her up with beauitful clothes.. and her makeup is nice... the final touch...

Finally the time have come for her to put her body into the icy cold coffin...Guys... my heart is breaking in half when i c that.... that is the last time i can hold her again....... but what will come has to come...Whelter i like it or nt.. i have to accept the truth that she is already gone..

[yang punk]

Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all...

Bro, with your kind of character you will find another woman who will appreciate you. Don't give up!

[geckoSG]

Be strong mate... Be strong... Lifes move on... She'll be happier in heaven to
know that you move on happily.

[minitoons]

Sorry for your lost. But life has to move on. Time will heal everything but don't forget your love for her.

All the best for the future and I hope you will recover from the lost soon.

[tinycork]

Bro, do more good deeds and dedicate the merits to her, so she will have a good rebirth soon and need not suffer again in the next life...Be strong, and hang in there...

Lots of prayers and blessings...
tinycork

[arinaz]

like the rest of the bros have mentioned. Be strong. Life has to go on and remember her for the beautiful things that she has done when you two are together. She will always be smiling at you from Heaven

[Rangers]

Yup... u guys r rite... though it is hard...

[dirtyhairy]

Yo Bro Rangers....I can only offer you my heartfelt sympathy
for being such a gentleman and so good to your dearest departed lady
I was hopeful until the end that there could be just an iota of ray
...of hope that perhaps she might pull through and she'd be okay
now your precious is gone while my sick PRC lover does not seem too strong
a liver failing sufferer, I can sense the helplessness
as she tries to cope with her illness
Sadly, as I watch her slowly and excruciatingly wither away
a miracle I seek and I pray
for her recovery...and her will to want to live nd love again for one more day!
Heaven knows how hard I try till my finances run dry
bcos it's a bonus just to hear her voice and know that she's still alive...