My crazy lifestyle & the price I paid for it

[Hooters666]

Sis

Solid awesome pure narration from your heart!

Keep up the writing!

Best

[kristin18]

Originally Posted by georgemagnum

Oh mine, TS ..... Have u ever considered writing a book based on this experience of yours ? Potential list topper

Pls share more ...... Hehehe

gm

Never thought of it. Just thought of sharing my experience here. But thanks for the compliment & support =)

Originally Posted by Hooters666

Sis

Solid awesome pure narration from your heart!

Keep up the writing!

Best

Thank you for the support =)

[kristin18]

Two months after A's departure, life went on as per normal for me. I still thought of him very often & we still talked on whatsapp, but the distance between us just kept growing. I carried on partying because I found solace in partying.

One day, at a club, I saw A's colleague & best friend, K. We hadn't seen each other ever since A left Singapore. We drank & partied together & started to grow close. But all this while I only saw him as A's best friend, nothing more than that, & treated him the way I would have treated any of A's friends. A knew that I had been partying regularly with K & had no issue with that. He did tease me a bit about my relationship with K, but I just laughed it off. After all, I wasn't interested in K at all.

One night, K was exceptionally nice to me at the club. He took really good care of me & spent every moment in the club with me. I was alone & didn't know the rest of the people in the group other than K, so I was obviously more reserved than usual. Other girls asked K to join them to dance, but he politely rejected them & chose to accompany me instead. It was really sweet of him. I got wasted that night, & K was pretty tipsy himself. Due to family problems, I didn't wanna go home for the night so I decided to check in to a hotel alone.

I reached the hotel but couldn't sleep. For some reason, I was wide awake despite being so drunk. In my drunken state, I dialled K's number.

Me: "Where are you?"

K replied that he was somewhere near the location of my hotel.

Me: "Can you come up to my hotel? I have a room here. Room number is XXX."

I think K was pretty taken aback but he was here in no time. I opened the door for him & headed back to dive under the covers because I was freezing cold. K removed his shoes & immediately pounced on me. Well, that was what I expected, anyway. K was a much bigger fan of kissing than A was, which turned me on. Somehow I felt a strange emotional connection with him, something I didn't feel with the rest of the guys, though it was still uncomparable to the feeling that A gave me. Maybe it was the kiss. I liked the way he kissed me with such passion, wihch made me feel like he really wanted me.

He removed his jeans & boxers & I promptly headed for his cock. The first thing he asked me was: "Small cock, right? Smaller than A?"

.......... I didn't know how to answer him so I kept quiet & went on to give him a blowjob. The fact was, his cock was about the same length & girth as A's, but I felt that it was not necessary to tell him that. I can't recall much of what happened during the foreplay, because everything was a blur to me in my drunken state. The next thing I knew, K's capped cock was inside me & he was pumping furiously.

He stopped halfway, exhausted & panting, & I knew he couldn't cum. I felt bad. Was it because he couldn't feel anything? Was it because he was too drunk? My mind was full of questions & I gave him a reassuring look to tell him that it was okay, don't worry about it. He started asking me questions like: "How many guys have you slept with?" "When you had sex with A, did you use a condom?" "Have you slept with many guys?"

I answered his questions to the best of my ability. But this wasn't exactly a conversation I wanted to have in the middle of sex, & while I was drunk. K pondered over my answers, then removed the condom from his cock & continued pumping me. The moment he entered me without the condom, he let out a long moan. Hmm...... So it was because of the condom. But by then, I had no mood already & hence didn't feel anything. I was also a little concerned about K shooting inside me, so I made it a point to remind him a couple of times not to shoot inside me. He nodded & told me he understands, & that he will withdraw before he cums.

It was much easier for him to cum after removing the condom. Within five minutes, his cock was out of me. He went to wash up, then we lay in bed together & chatted for a bit before we fell asleep.

[highlysex]

Thank you sis for your story pls continue

[kristin18]

I had to wake up four hours later for work. I got up & showered while K was still in bed, & when I was ready, I woke him up. We went our separate ways after he gave me a goodbye kiss. I thought to myself: "What the fuck did I just do? I just slept with A's best friend. Oh fuck. & guys, being guys, will brag to each other about who they've slept with, right? K is gonna tell A that we had sex. A is gonna think so badly of me after this episode. Oh fuck......... I hate this........."

I couldn't focus at work at all. Then a sudden, random thought struck my mind: "Did K withdraw & shoot outside of me last night? Why is it that I don't recall feeling anything on my tummy? I didn't even head to the toilet to wash up. If he did cum on my body/tummy, I should have felt sticky & should have gone to wash up, right? But I don't remember washing up. So that means he came inside of me?" I texted K, but he didn't reply me throughout the whole afternoon. So I decided to visit the doctor after work to get the morning after pill just in case.

Thankfully, K had kept that night's events to himself. I didn't ask him, but A's attitude towards me hadn't changed at all so I supposed he didn't know what had happened. Knowing A's character, he would have been angry & disappointed with me if he had known that I'd slept with his best friend. So I took it that he was in the dark about it since there was no change in his behaviour towards me.

A few days later, K & I met at the club again. K wanted a second round with me, but I wasn't keen. After all, I couldn't get over the guilt of sleeping with A's best friend. I managed to wriggle myself out of that situation that night by telling K that I had work the next day & I had to go straight home after the party ended. He was reluctant, but let me go anyway. That was the last I saw of K.

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So the party sessions continued, but for some strange reason, I felt like my alcohol tolerance level was getting weaker. Not possible, I thought, since I had always been able to hold my liquor well. But I found myself getting drunk & throwing up more easily than ever. I thought this meant that the nights spent partying were taking a toll on my body & it was time to put a stop to all of this. Still, partying was an addiction I couldn't rid myself of, hard as I tried.

[LovePotion]

pls continue thanks.

[smellycat]

thanks. insightful journey into the female mind

[kristin18]

My menses was due to come sometime around the second week of the next month. My menses was always regular, so when the PMS symptoms came on the second week, I thought nothing of it. By the third week, my menses still wasn't here. Hmmm........... Strange, since I was having all the PMS symptoms like cramps, heavy & swollen breasts, etc. I waited anyway, positive that my menses will come. After all, the last time I had sex was with K, & I did take the morning after pill so I knew I was safe. My life went on as per normal.

When my menses still didn't come by the end of the third week, my mind started to fill itself up with crazy thoughts. Even though I knew the chances of me being pregnant were low, well, let's just say that when faced with such a situation, everything seemed possible to me. I spoke to a close girlfriend & randomly mentioned that my menses was supposed to be here the week before but it still wasn't here yet. "Could I be pregnant?" I asked her. I was also starting to feel a little bit of nausea in the mornings -- but that was also a common symptom of PMS. "Just go do a pregnancy test, that would solve everything", my friend advised. "You have nothing to worry about lah, since you said you took the morning after pill, you should be safe...... But just do the test to put your mind at ease."

That night, I couldn't sleep. I was wide awake the whole night through. I tried to tell myself not to think too much & stress myself out unnecessarily because that could be one of the reasons why my menses was late. I also tried to tell myself that the morning after pill would cause side effects like delayed menses, so perhaps this was just a side effect of the pill. Still, I was kept awake till it was time to wake up for work. I woke up slightly earlier so I had time to go buy the pregnancy test kit & do the test before heading to work.

My heart was beating nervously. Even though I knew the chances were low, this was the first time I had encountered a situation like this. I quickly paid for a pregnancy test kit & headed to the nearby coffeeshop toilet. At that point, I didn't care that the toilet was dirty & smelly. I just wanted to quickly get this over & done with. I definitely couldn't wait till I reached office, that's for sure. I skimmed through the instructions. Took out the thermometer-like test kit. Accurately placed it below my vagina. A few drops of urine landed on the test area, a few drops landed on my finger. My hands were shaking. There was a reaction on the results area of the test kit. I lifted it up to have a closer look.

The first line appeared. Ok....... Now waiting to see if the second line would appear. There was only one sentence repeating in my mind, "Please don't let the second line appear." I watched.......... As the second line appeared. As my heart dropped to the floor suddenly. As my world came crashing down on me.



I was pregnant. I was 21, & pregnant, & the father of my baby was nowhere to be found.

[highlysex]

I was pregnant. I was 21, & pregnant, & the father of my baby was nowhere to be found.[/QUOTE]

Oh dear , so sorry to hear that ! You take care ya ? TS !

[lorraina]

I can't comment much on your true story but as a girl, safety should always come before fun.. A mistake can lead to life time regret.. Play safe.

[iluvbreast]

A really nasty situation, sorry to read about it...

[DocD]

sad to say but i think the morning pill may have a high fail rate. my ex oso kena pregnant in similar situation (no it wasnt mine had happened long after we had broken up)...

[kristin18]

I walked out of the toilet in a daze. All of a sudden I felt giddy. I didn't know what to do. I stood at one corner, my heart still pumping furiously, my hands still trembling. I called my close girlfriend (I'll call her H from here on). My voice was trembling as well. H asked me how was it, & the first word that came out of my mouth was "fuck". She immediately knew what had happened.

H: "Huh? So zhun ah? But I thought you took the pill? What happened? Why like that?"

I didn't know how to answer her, to be honest. I was searching for the answers myself; how could I possibly answer her.....? I felt as if I could break down & cry anytime, but I kept it in. I hung up the phone with her & phoned my sister, asking her if she could meet me immediately. I just needed to see someone, someone I could talk to to help solve this problem. My sister was sleeping. I told her I wanted to meet her immediately & she knew something was wrong. She kept pressing me to tell her what had happened but I couldn't say the words. Finally, after much hesitation, I said it.

"I'm pregnant", I whispered into the phone. I hadn't wanted to face up to reality, but the moment those two words came out from my mouth, I knew I couldn't run anymore. I had to face this. I had to solve this problem. I created this mess, & I had to clear it. There was no way I could run away from it. My sister was shocked. She, too, tried to seek answers through me. I couldn't provide her with any answers. None of them could help me, I realized. They were too shocked by what had happened. All they wanted were answers, which I couldn't give.

I hung up the phone & tried to rationally think through what was the next course of action to take. I started to make my way home first. I didn't turn up for work & I just sent an SMS saying that I was unwell. I looked up the Internet on what was the safest, quickest & cheapest way to get an abortion in Singapore. I wasn't gonna keep the baby, that's for sure. I wasn't ready for one. I was surviving on a $800/month pay with no CPF & no medisave. There was no way I could feed two mouths. & there was absolutely no way my parents would agree to me being a single mother. If they should know about this, I was quite sure that they'd disown me.

I found that the cheapest way was to head to a polyclinic & get a referral to a government hospital. The fees at a government hospital would be subsidised, & that seemed like the only way out for me.

I made my way to the polyclinic myself. Many thoughts ran through my mind. H suggested I let K in on the pregnancy, though we both believed it wouldn't make a difference, whether he knew about it or not. Well, I thought I'd just text him, anyway.

Me: "Are you busy? I have something to tell you."
K: "What's up?"
Me: "I'm pregnant."
K: "Huh????? I thought you went to see the doctor for the pill???? Why didn't you?????"
Me: "I did, but the pill didn't work."
K sent a sad emoticon.

I was filled with anger. All he could manage was just a sad emoticon?!

Me: "It's okay, I understand. Guys are privileged in that they can just fuck & go; I'll be left to deal with all of this alone -- both financially & emotionally. It's okay, I understand."
K: "Are you angry with me?"
Me: "What do you think?"
K: "So you think it's my fault? If so, I'm sorry."
Me: "What are you sorry about? If you don't think it's your fault, don't apologise to me. It's pointless that way."
K: "I'm sorry....... I really didn't intend for this to happen. I thought I came outside of you, but I guess I couldn't control."
Me: "Yeah, it's okay, don't worry about it...... I expect to be alone through all of this anyway, & I don't expect for you to bear the financial cost with me as well."
K: "I don't have money to help you.............. *sad emoticon*"

I stopped replying. I was too overwhelmed with the anger. A $50 as a form of an apology wasn't too much to ask for, I believed. Even if he wasn't willing to help me through this emotionally, the least he could do is lessen my financial burden. But his replies showed me that he didn't want to have anything to do with this pregnancy or abortion. I told myself to lose hope in this bastard & focus on solving this alone instead. I was afraid, because I knew it was gonna be a long journey ahead, but I braved myself up. I believed I was strong enough to go through this alone.



I was wrong about myself.

[Gambit7]

Sorry to hear the things u went thru... It's really quite fucked up... Whatever happened on ur first r/s, u shouldn't even consider in going to such extreme way to hurt urself. Drinking and clubbing ur way is definitely degrading urself and not improving on the situation. I think this ordeal should be over for u by now, but it's never too late to repent and improvised ur actions and attitude towards problems.

[mrloner]

Hope/wish that you are good now