My love - (From whore to angel)

[toyota wish]

Bro Gara dont worry u Settle ur things first we samster frm sbf will support u

[Gara]

The first sex with Ying was unforgetable and we did a 2nd round shortly on the same dae........

We did spend days together thereafter. Like any normal couples, I bought her to movies (I still remeber our veri first movie watching together is 'Fast and furious Part 1', watch it at the old marina square), having lunch and dinner, tour her around singapore. I will always go meet her without fail after my work. All my mind are only on Ying at that period, thinking of her every moment whenever i am not with her. Although i know she is a whore, fucked for money, already have a daughter, and also got a ang mo whom take care her (she doesnt like him and only did it for money)... I can tell you that i am reali crazy about her till i reali don mind where she come from and what she do. Power of love, its a feeling that is totally different with all my ex before which make me want her to be with me (some friends did think that she do spell on me, which i think is impossible becuase i got nothing for her to hope). I even ditch my singapore gf (3 years relationship) for her...

I can say we are deeply in love shortly. She moved in and stay with me soon.. we spend even more times together thereafter. There are happiness, sadness, suffering and enjoyment.. For the start We had communication problem, different thinking on cluture, food was another issue (She don get use on chinese food), I was jealous and hurt whenever she go back indonesia to meet the ang mo which make me always sleepless at night (think and imagine image one her with the ang mo) while she was away with the ang mo and went back thailand whenever her visa is finish. Sometimes she will purposely tell me to stop everything as she is not a decent girl and is not good enough for me. Asking me what care for her so much?

Yet We do had happy moments.. she cook for me almost everydae, we drink wine and spending time communicate with each other every nite, we had wonderful and romantic sex in nites trying out all sorts of positions everytime. We massage each other oftenly and spend times at home watching dvd... My dad never reali care and nor go againest our relationship as well.

I did went holidae with her in bangkok leaving good memories

There are moments that I did ask myself on is she worth enduring and torturting myself for this relationship? What can i do for her? Do we reali have a future? Can we really be together forever?

Months passed, i decided to quit my job as shampoo boy just for our future. I need to commit more for her. First i ask her to get married, i want her to stay in singapore longer..( that time stay of visa is only 2weeks per visit and flights are expensive as buget airlines still have not started yet). We got rom in singapore, most of my relatives attend our rom day.. And Moon attend as well. (We got blessing from Moon)...

[Gara]

We never did any wedding dinner after rom (No money but still we are already veri happy)...

Soon after she stop her relationship with the ang mo for me. But time was hard for us at first, she want to change for me and care for my feeling by stopping, but yet she can't find any job as shes still not a PR which lead her no choice but to go back orchard tower 'not' to sell body, but work to sell ladies drinks (make commission) and find tips from the male customers (entertaining them by chatting and playing pools). At that period of time, my new job's income are not able to support the both of us. We got moments so poor till sharing meals together, sharing every single cents we had together. There was even a dae (till now i cant forget) that we left only $2 to survive. (Still we manage to go past that hard moment).

However, heaven is helping us...Things start to turn well soon. I manage to apply a long term visa for her and i also manage to get a better job working in one of the biggest retail company in singapore as manaement trainee.
(First month was tough for me as no much money for standby, i ate on apples, oranges and lasi lemak for lunch and control back home for dinner after work)

But Working in this company had change our life better. I work hard and commit all my time and energy for 3 years.. And this 3 years of my hard work had got my wife a PR status, a average monthly income of $3.5k, held a marriage function in her hometown thailand... And most important of all, she doesnt need to go back orchard tower to find money. She came to work with me in the company operating one of the largest store in singapore together. We work hard, 10am-10pm 6 days per week daily till we have some savings and got credit cards and cashine facuilty from banks.

In year 2007, While life is getting better, we bought her daughter over to singapore to stay with us and study here. But Our mindset in work start to change soon after our daughter is in singapore. We start to feel tired in this current job slowly and we had no time for our daughter! With other reasons and oppuntity involved, we choose to resign and start our own business.

Starting out in retail trade, we rent a shop in one of the mall in singapore (I used up most saving and cashline funds) and import our goods from manufactuers in thailand. Lucky enough we not making looses and business was ok for us for the first year although our income is not as much as wat we made before. We had more time in famiy. (But I and my wife starts to quarrel more often due to business and work)

Year 2008, as the shop contract are ending.. i decided to not to continue and switch to wholesale/ distribution trade. With this and other reasons involved, my dad sold our house in CCK for $240k to support.......

[nels]

Good luck bro .

[Gara]

With the support extra funds, our new business plan are able to kickoff smoothly.. Business was develop fast and good in coming 2 years till 2010.

(Year 2010) Years passed quickly, i and ying have already be together and married for 6 years. Things and relationship had slowly change throughout in this long duration, to be frank, although we are together seeing each other days and nites, i just feel our love,sweetness and romantic moments are no longer strong same before. She starts to change, more business-minded now which is totally different from her before. Our sex life had reduce as well... Her daughter are growing older and giving me more headache. Business starts to drop, our clients dragging payments, some run away, business competitors keep increasing.. all expenses increase onli sales of business keep dropping.
It was a veri tough and stressful year for me in both work and relationship.

In year 2010 december, my wife went back to hometown with daughter for 1 month as usual (school holidae). I am alone again taking care of business for whole month.. One day feeling stress and bored, I made my first visit alone to marinabay sands casino ...

MY BIGGEST NIGHTMARE BEGINS........................

My first visit to casino won me about 3k and second visit (the following day) won me about 8k. I go back again and again thereafter hoping to win more to support my company and settle the business debts to banks asap.

But weeks later, believe me...i lost back $130k in MBS and RWS (all savings including company funds)

Ever since, everything change, she also change.. Sad, angry and disappointed in me after she come back and know the truth. Theres the veri first moment we coming to a divorce stage!

That moment, I have really lost my mind, lost all hope and everything till i come to a stage that i try to end my life by drinking dentol, swallowing lots of pills and cutting my pulse...

..........(to be continue)...........

[alan0338]

kamsia for the story bro, and hope ur trial go smoothly, good luck and take care when inside ok...

[cleanfreak]

Bro don't give up. All the best to you. Take this experience as a lesson and learn from it. Ups and downs in life. Endure through this dark storm and I'm sure you can climb back again with your experience in life. Jiayou!

[kenny6890]

thanks for the story . carry on please

[Gara]

Just back home..will finish up this thread in a while.

[royalflash]

all the best to you and good luck.

[andymonster]

u r still young...after u come out u still have a very good future...dun give up urself...sincerely from my heart...

[jayho]

all the best and good luck to you

[Gara]

I have really lost my mind, lost all hope and everything till i come to a stage that i try to end my life by drinking dentol, swallowing lots of pills and cutting my pulse...

Expecting to die ending everything since i had lost everything (money, business, and soon my wife!) and in deep debts, i still end up alive and kicking even after 2 attemps of trying. My life was all blank and hopeless.. I never went back home for 2 days. Finally due to some reasons, i went back on the third dae.. Everyone was worry waiting for me, my dad, mum, bro, wife... That is the moment which changes me to be stronger and a will to live.

I end my business soon after that incident....

Still owning about 50k debts for past 6 months, i still manage to survive till now although everyday is like a hell (feeling both physical and mental stress from my debts) to me... Don be surpised that I did end up working as cleaner, dish washer, kitchen helper! Till i manage to find a good job in april.. But working there is only as short as 1 month..

Due to the stress of repaying my debts and other reasons, i end up kept the company's one week sales money for personnal instead banking into company account although I know i am doing a crime..

Shortly I was reported to police regarding my case..... tusday will be my court case.. Read the papers on this wednesday, my case may be written in and then you readers will know who i am!
------------------------------------------------------------------------

[MrBonker71]

Bro, take care. It is not the end, be strong, you can make it.

[reflexk]

Thanks a lot for sharing your story..
Its not all over. Its is not the end.
Hope you can start over once you are out.
You, as everyone deserves a second chance. Maybe you can read the story of Frank Abagnale Jr, portrayed in the movie Catch me if you can.
That should give you some hope, some inspiration.