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Originally Posted by discordpiggy
Firstly, FACE PALM! no offence!
The amount of years you kept going is the amount of years i removed myself from the society. I only associate myself with booze and 1 gf.
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None taken sis..
There is always a reason for everything.. Family ties and emotions has always been my softest spot..
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Originally Posted by discordpiggy
what happened to you if I did not read wrongly is that your ex left you for someone and she was subsequently abandoned. this is what I called KARMA.
most people do not cherish what they have and they left to get back 10 fold of crap. it is not your fault so why are you doing this. if she left you its on her own accord. you moved on.
I had been cheated, betrayed and verbally been abused by various men/few women and not just one. The betrayal of trust and honesty, in addition to the verbal abuse due to how I look, still lives in the shadow of me on a daily basis till now. This betrayal/abuse allows me to dis associate and ignore the society
I had to learn to communicate with humans which is the hardest part and forcing myself to live in another country to hopefully make a change, but it still did not work, only for a short while as I wanted to see how people's reaction and compare cultures. After which, I automatically switch back to hide mode. Unfortunately, I am still unable to program back due to the fact that I have not made decent progress or contact to the society. I would usually avoid, ignore and take flight if someone wants to talk to me with full defence up. That is what a cold heart has left me – human robot.
My questions still stand, are you able to dis associate yourself to the society and limit to your work only? And reject any social communications and invitations?!
cheers!
hiding at the Dark side
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Would you believe me if I said, I've been there and done that as well?
My life at one point felt like an unfortunate television drama? And no, I am not making this up, there is no reason to anyway..
In a short span of 3 months, the events I have listed below happened in succession..
- Dad walked out on our family for a girl 2 years my senior.
- My grandma suffered a stroke because of that and left us too.
- My mum grieved and got drunk every night.
- My sis could not take how our family was torn up and moved to her bf place.
- My ex-gf (the one I mentioned in my earlier post) of 6 years walked out on me with a mere "take care" sms.
Basically, the world I knew existed and lived in crumbled.. I lost all focus in life and had to quit my job..
I disassociated myself from everything and everyone I once cherished..
I basically locked myself away in my darkened room in the day..
At night I had to clean up after my mum while she lay sobbing, drunk and half-asleep..
That aftermath lasted for a year before I picked up the pieces, hardened myself up and got back on my feet..
So, to answer your question.. I believe I can because I have done it before and am still subtly doing it today..